Nicole Kidman asked a question that has now taken on a different meaning in the wake of her split from Keith Urban.
Reports in late September revealed that the longtime couple were separating after nearly 20 years of marriage. Kidman officially filed for divorce after the news broke.
In a cover story interview for Vogue’s November issue, conducted weeks before the shocking news, writer Wendell Steavenson asked Kidman “how she felt now, in her 50s.”
Steavenson said she “had expected to hear a nice trite response about the sagacity of age,” but what she got was an actor who was “was wry, rueful, unsure of herself.”
Kidman responded with a question of her own, asking: “How many times do you have to be taught that you think you know where your life is going and then it isn’t going in that direction?”
She then spoke about relying on “ride or die friendships” with people like Reese Witherspoon in Nashville, where she resides with the two daughters she shares with Urban.
As for the highs and lows of life, the Oscar winner told Vogue she channels it all into her acting.
“That’s the beauty of what I do. There’s a place for some of this to explode, implode, process, discover,” she said. She also spoke to the magazine about writing down her dreams in a journal, though she said she burns her notes.
“I’m contemplating writing,” Kidman said, adding that “there’s a wealth of things I am compiling in my little psyche.”
Kidman and Urban first met in 2005 and married the following year. Their two daughters are Sunday Rose, 17, and Faith Margaret, 14.
After the separation news broke, an anonymous source told People magazine that Kidman “didn’t want this.”
“She has been fighting to save the marriage,” a source shared.
Kidman made her first public appearance following news of the split at Chanel’s Paris Fashion Week show on Monday alongside her daughters.
