She survived Turkey's deadly earthquake, but 4 months on, finding hope is 'difficult'

It took 4 days for zlem Ayna to be freed after a devastatingearthquake left herpinned between her furniture and theconcrete wreckage of her five-storey apartment building in Adiyaman, Turkey.

But three months on,she still frequently feels trapped and has barely left the hospital.

"Sometimes, especially indoors, I feel like I can't breathe," she said."There is a feeling of choking."

Ayna, 37, spoke with CBCNews on May 10 near a hospital in Istanbul where she has been receiving medical treatment for her injuries caused by the earthquakeand the depression that followed.

The 45-minute visit was only the second time Ayna had been out of the hospital since Feb. 10.

The first time was only a few days before her interview with CBC.She went to a store to buy clothes becauseshe lost all herbelongings in the earthquake, but when she went into the small change room, she said she had a panic attack and left immediately.

"It's good that I had been rescued under the rubble but sometimes I feel so exhausted. I feel so indifferent," she said through tears.

Few survivors

Ayna said she was one of three people rescued from the first three floors of her apartment building, which collapsedjust after 4 a.m. on Feb.6 during a 7.8-magnitude earthquake the first of two to hit southeast Turkey and Syria over a six-hour period.

More than 50,000 people were killed, authorities have said,and three million peoplewere displaced when buildings collapsed or were left severely damaged.

Ayna told CBC that she woke to her room crashing down around herand lay pinned between debris, shivering for four days without food and water until she heard the sound of rescuers looking for survivors.

After crews realized she was alive in the rubble, they spent several hours trying to to delicately extract her from underneath slabs of concrete. Theywere aided by a 10-membersearch and rescue team from Burnaby, B.C.

CBCNews was at the site of the rescue and reported liveon the risky operation. Among the concrete and twisted rebarthat covered the ground, the news crew noticed a pink heart-shaped box with the namezleminscribed on it.

It was usedby the survivor crews were trying to rescue, but they didn't yet know her name.

When Ayna was finally freed from the building, placed on a stretcher and put into a waiting ambulance, the rescue crews and crowd who had gathered to watch were jubilant.

Two days after her rescue, CBC met with Ayna in a hospital in Diyarbakir, Turkey one of three that she has been admitted to in recent months.

Multiple surgeries

Back then, doctors said her kidneys were damaged from being severely dehydrated, and that if she had been trapped for even a few more hours, she might not have made it.

She and her mother, Glten Ayna,spoke about how grateful they were that rescuers found her when they did.

Ayna had cuts and bruises, including wounds on her scalp, which ended up needing much more medical attention.

After seeing a specialist in Istanbul, doctors realized the cuts were deeper than originally thought and she underwent about a dozen surgeries and skin grafts.

When Ayna spoke with CBCNews, she wore a pink baseball cap, concealing the layers of bandages wrapped about her head.

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zlem Ayna has rarely left hospital since being rescued from the rubble of her collapsed apartment building in February.

She had been seeing a psychiatrist and put on an antidepressant, but said it had been making her nauseous.

"Sometimes I think I should have hope, but it's very difficult for me. Maybe if I start a new life somewhere, this could be easier for me," she said.

Ayna, who worked as a primary schoolteacher in the city of Adiyman, has no plans of returning there to live, but did go back on May 14to cast her ballot in the country's presidential and parliamentary elections.

Before making the trip, she told CBC that she was apprehensive about going, but wanted to face "the truth."

"On the one hand, it's the city that I worked in for nine years and I have memories. At the same time, it is the city where I had the worst time of my life."

Despite her obvious trauma, Ayna is hopeful that moving to a new city and starting teaching again in the fall will give her a fresh start.

As her visit with CBC wrapped up and she prepared to head back to the hospital for another appointment, the crew passed along a care package from the Burnaby search and rescue team.

It included a photo of the crew in front of her apartment building just after the rescue and a message written in English and Turkish that in part read that the team admired her "strength and resilience" and hope for her speedy recovery.