Beading project honours 'incredibly powerful' stories of residential school children

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Deborah Young admits she's not the most skilledbeader. Butwhen the unmarked graves of 215 children were uncovered in Kamloops, B.C., the social work student whose parents met at a residential school immediately turned to the traditional art form as a way to honour those children who never returned.

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In July, Young put out a call for 215 baby vamps, which are the beaded patterns that top moccasins. She says she's been amazed by the nearly 200 creationsshe's received from as far away as California and the U.K., many from those who say they have never beaded before.

"I've just picked up beading myself not too long ago. But what I love about beads is that when you look at [them], when they're just scattered around the table, it's meaningless, right?" said Young.

"But when you start threading them you create images and those images tell stories."

For Young, the letters that arrive in the mail with the vamps are even more moving, telling the story of each child.

"All of the stories I've received have been incredibly powerful."

Unfinished journeys

The project is deeply personal for Young, who is Cree. Her mom,Bette Morriseau, and her dad,Ken Young, met at Dauphin Residential School in Manitoba.

She remembers her father telling her about how he ran away from school when he was first sent there at five years old. He spoke no English and fled into the nearby potato fields.He says he got lost and might have frozen to death if the nuns didn't discover him.

Young asked beaders to create a single vamp instead of a matching pair to reflect the unfinished journeys of those children who never returned home. She plans to donate the collection to Carleton University's school of social work where she is a PhD student.

From father to daughter

Young says her parents tried to create a home life for her they never experienced, but they struggled with the impact of the schools when they became parents.

"My dad had a hard time showing love. I don't recall him ever, ever telling me that he loved me or hugging me," she said.

"That was just how dad was."

Young remembers feeling ashamed of her identity, using drugs, and running away to the streets of Winnipeg.

"I did a lot of damage to myself ...and I think it's because I hated myself. I believe that is connected to the violence that my people have suffered over generations."

It's something she's tried to change when it comes to her own two children, who are now adults.

"Things like that really impact people when children don't receive the love that they deserve."

A reckoning during a pandemic

As part of the project Young has taught new beaders online,while participants have also organized outdoor beading circles. For her, beading is about community, resistance and healing.

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"I think it's helped people get through not just the pandemic, but also the trauma that we're experiencing as a country, as we think about what has happened around residential schools, around colonial violencethat's a lot ofstuff people are working through."

She was heartened by the outpouring of grief after the revelations in Kamloops, B.C., this spring, but she worries the conversation has now quieted.

"You just can't have a reckoning and then have it die as quickly as it came. It can't work that way. It can't happen again."

Young's call ends on Sept. 30, National Truth and Reconciliation Day. She hopes despite the small size of the creations she's gathering, her efforts will have real impact on generations to come.

"What is a vamp? How is that going to change the situation? I have to believe it will," she said.

"Something so simple and something soquiet speaks volumes."

Support is available for anyone affected by their experience at residential schoolsand those who are triggered by the latest reports.

A national Indian Residential School Crisis Line has been set up to provide support for former students and those affected. People can access emotional and crisis referral services by calling the 24-hour national crisis line: 1-866-925-4419.