Innu were promised a 'better place' but suffered years of abuse, children in care inquiry hears

WARNING: This story contains distressing details.

Emotional moments led to pauses and embraces Tuesday at the inquiry into the treatment of Innu children in care as community meetings continue in Sheshatshiu Innu First Nation.

Joanna Michel told the Inquiry into the Treatment, Experiences and Outcomes of Innu in the Child Protection System that she's proud to be Indigenous.

"I'm proud to be Innu. My brown skin, that's who I am. A damaged soul that once knew what pain was all about," Joanna Michel told the commissioners Tuesday.

Michel, who was born in 1964, said her parents were alcoholics, and her father was abusive to her, her mother and her siblings. After she missed school due to the abuse, two social workers came to Michel's home in Sheshatshiu.

"They told me that'we're going to take you to a better place,'" Michel said.

The inquiry began in February with opening statements and testimony about the history of the Innu.

The inquiry's three commissioners,James Igloliorte, Anastasia Qupeeand Mike Devine, are investigating systemic issues with the child protection system and will make recommendations to improve it.

Any Innu with experiences or opinions on the child protection system are invited to speak this week.

Michel testified shewas taken to the North West River junior dormitory, operated by the International Grenfell Association.

"I was eight years old and I began to experience emotional, physical, sexual, psychological abuse," Michel said. "I didn't understand. I was just a small kid."

Michel said she couldn't tell anyone because bad things would happen,and she thought she was the only one being sexually abused, before learning later she was one of many.

She spoke of how she coped by listening to music and trying to stop theabuse from happening to her siblings.

Michel said her sisters tried to run away multiple timesbut dormitory staff would phone the cable car that connected North West River and Sheshatshiu Innu First Nation so workers wouldn't let them on.Police would thencatchand returnthem, she said.

"I didn'twant to be there. I didn't feel safe," Michel said.

"One time there was open ice. [It] was in the springtime. We were running across, I was trying to get away. I know it wasn't safe to run across 'cause it was open water. I was so desperate to get away. I didn't want to be hurt anymore."

The workers called the Innu children dirty, rotten, no good and more, she said. When she left the dorm, Michel said, she turned to drugs and alcohol to numb the pain, was in abusive relationships, hurt her own children, gotinto trouble with the law and was incarcerated.

Shewas considering suicide, she told the inquiry, until her sister took her in.

With help from family and treatment centres, Michel is now sober anda grandmother and great-grandmother. She started sharing her story in 2011and helps out in treatment centres.

Michel hopes everyone, especially elected officials,listen to stories from the inquiry. Monetary compensation for survivors isn't enough, she said changes need to happen.

"This is real. The pain is real," Michel said. "The history of residential school needs to be told, and I am so happy that I didn't take my own life. I got to enjoy my family. I got to tell the story."

Enough inquiries, time for change: survivor

Former Innu Nation grand chief David Nuke addressed the commissioners on Monday, calling on them to create a report that results in meaningful change.

"I'm a victim of the church. I'm also a victim of residential school. And also a victim of [the Sixties Scoop]," Nuke told the commissioners, referring to an era in which federal policy oversaw an estimated 20,000 Indigenous children removed from their families' homes to be placed in foster homes.

Nuke said the Innu are behind the Inuit of Labrador in creating a better future.

He said the Inuit have been empowered to have people trained as pilots, doctors, educators, lawyers, police and judges pointing specifically to Igloliorte, a retired judge but the Innu don't have the resources to do the same.

"That's what the abuse done to my people," Nuke said. "The system has failed the Innu."

Nuke said he wants to see the federal government settle the Innu Nation's land claim agreement and work with the Innu to have proper resources to train them for the future.

"We can train people to be wildlife officers, to be fisheries officers, to be police officers, to be pilots," Nuke said. "That's what reconciliation would mean to me. So James Igloliorte and Anastasia Qupee, please make this happen, please. Give us meaningful results."

The community meetingscontinueuntil Friday afternoon at the Sheshatshiu Youth Centre.

TheInquiry websitehas some important phone numbers for anyone in Natuashish, Sheshatshiuor elsewhere in the Labrador-GrenfellHealth regionlooking for healing and crisis help, andanyone in the province can call 811, any time, for mental health support.

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