8 months sober: What it took to come back from meth

Travis Veilleuxstarts every day with a morning run a ritual that has proved essential to hisrecovery from meth addiction.

"It's been 250 days clean now, I've never missed the gym once. I run fivemiles every morning that's minimum and that's what keeps me sane, sober, and just keeps me focused," he said.

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Looking back, Veilleux says he remembers the sense of hopelessness he experienced onmeth.

"I think it was a year and a half, two years I was homeless, riding around on a bike and just alone, empty inside, stealing from Dollarama... I was the walking dead out there," he said.

"The only thing that was alive in me was my heartbeat. I think that's what every addict needs to hit it's a bottom, and it's a spiritual and emotional bottom."

In and out of rehab for 16 years

Veilleux has been in and out of addictions programs in Manitoba, Alberta and British Columbia for the last 16 years.

It took a new approach to addiction to keep him on track with his recovery, he said,which he found in a program called RE:ACT.

"It started with [addiction expert] Gabor Mat's work that pointed out that every addict he dealt with had childhood trauma," said Tim Fletcher, president and founder of the RE:ACT program in Winnipeg.

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The program was launched two and half years ago in response to a growing desire among those working in the addictions field to provide programming that addressed the deeper problems behind a person's addiction.

"For all addicts, at some point in their life they saw addiction as the solution to their problems," Fletcher said.

"And so the question in really helping them was what problems were they trying to solve by their addiction? It was childhood trauma unmet need in childhood, abuse, neglect and so that led to really focusing in on the effects of childhood trauma in the life of somebody who would become an addict."

The RE:ACT (Recovery Education for Addiction and Complex Trauma) program is an out-patient program, meaning clients attend classes five days a week but need to secure their own housing.

Out-patient formula important to staying sober

For Veilleux, the interaction with everyday life during the program has beenan important part of staying sober.

"When you're in a 20-day residential program you're sheltered, you're away from society. And when they throw you back out, what do you got?" he said.

"You still got no house, you still got no coping tools to deal with life. That's the great thing about RE:ACT. You go there and [Tim Fletcher] teaches you and you get to go home and practice it the same day."

Fletcher describes the first phase of the program as very academic, with four weeks of daily workshops that focus on addiction recovery and complex trauma. The second phase is two months long and focuses on learning new ways of living and putting what clients have learned into practice.

Choosingmeth

Veilleux struggled with an addiction to crack cocaine for more than a decade until he tried injecting meth for the first time.

"I shot it and it was everything I wanted. My place was spotless, I talked to people. Immediately I was hooked. I stopped smoking crack that night and started shooting meth," Veilleux said in an interview for CBC's Information Radio in 2017.

Over time, though, the initial positive effects of meth wore off and Veilleux started to isolate himself in the same ways he was isolated by his addiction to crack cocaine. He was anxious, paranoid and began hearing voices.

'Running is probably the best medicine'

On meth, Veilleux says he was still having auditory hallucinations when he was going through detox and it took a return to exercising and surrounding himself with positive people for the psychosis to stop.

"What I knew worked for me was hard core cardio and getting back into weights. I love the gym and running is probably the best medicine for so many things," he said.

At eightmonths sober, Veilleux isa full-time student in a baking and pastry program at Red River College and has beenable to secure safe, sober housing.

"I have family back. I have friends. I have people who look at me and smile at me. It's amazing the people who are coming back in my life ... life is amazing and there's no way in hell I'm going back to that scared, hopeless state of mind ever again. Ever."