Taking a walk is a simple step for most, but now steeped in fear for many Muslims

On the evening of June 6, while out for a walk, a Muslim family was struck and killed by a 20-year-old driver in London, Ont.

I feel guilty admitting thevery first question that came to my mind was: Could it happen hereto my family, too?

Four out of the five family members died that day.Mother, father, daughterand grandmother. Onlya nine-year-old boy survived and is being treated in hospital.

Police believe members ofthe Afzaal familyweretargeted in the attack because of their Muslim faith. The driver has been charged withfour counts of murder and one count of attempted murder following thehit and run.

But, the charges won't bring back those four people and afear of walking while Muslim has rippled across Canada.

Taking a walk: a simple step for some, but a deep fear for many Muslims

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Many Muslims in Metro Vancouver are sharing a new-found fear of walking outside their homes and in the streets after a Muslim family of four was struck and killed in London, Ont., in what police are describing as a targeted attack on their faith.

I acknowledge that I am a Muslim woman who doesn't wear a hijab and doesn't dress in traditional clothing most times I'm out for a walk. But I cannot change my faith or rather I do not want to. And I cannot erase my skin colour or how I look.

To fear walking, one of the basic necessities of lifeand one of the few things one can do forexercise and fresh airduring a pandemic, is unfathomabletome.

But now, a simple walk is tainted with fear of being targeted for my religious beliefs.

I can only speak for myself when I say I hold my breath each time I hear my grandparents are going for a walk or a Muslim friend is out for a post-dinner stroll. Butwhy should we fearour own skinandthe sidewalks outside our own homes?

That is a question I haven't found an answer to just yet.

AmiraliJinnah, 91, and Roshan Jinnah, 85, walk every day. They are my grandparents;my Muslim grandparents.

"I was scared my God because I am a Muslim, too, and my skin is brown ... so I was thinking what shall I do?If Iwalk everyday, what will happen?" Amirali asks.

He's not alone with hisquestions.

In B.C., Muslims and allies attended a vigil at the Vancouver Art Gallery on Thursday acknowledging their fears of simply being themselvesin Canada.

For Roshan, her fears are rooted in not just her religion, but her age.

If a driver were to target her as a Muslim woman, like police said a 20-year-old did with the Afzaal family,she fears she could not escape

"I am scared ... but I will keep courage and I will walk," Roshan says.

Fatima Aziz, a mother of two from Surrey,says enough is enough.

"Walking the street with my hijab, this is what my struggle isand Ido it with pride," Aziz says.

She says her identity is rooted in her hijab and she's tired of trying to blend in to feel safe.

"How much more do Ineed to assimilate? Ispeak English,Ispeak French. Iwas born and raised here. This is my identity," she says.

She says it's a lie to say she'll continue to walk feeling safe. But, she will walk anyway.

"We're used to seeing people like us be murdered," she says.

"It's unbearable.... It's debilitating to think if Ileave today, will I come home?"

For Vancouverite Hussain Dhanani, 35, walking is peace and comfort.

Butit'snow an uneasy part of his day.

"I actually grew my beard out over the last year and that's made me feel even more visible as a brown person," Dhanani says.

The uncomfortablefeeling won't stop him though.

"I'm going to continue to walk, but we now walk with a sense of always looking around," Dhanani says.

This First Person article is the experience of Zahra Premji, areporter for CBC Vancouver.For more information about CBC's First Person stories, please seethe FAQ.